Madness Update ;o)

So so where did June go? can anyone enlighten me please? heeeeellllllllloooooooooo its the middle of july. Ok so this seems to be a running theme in my blog............missing time.

So ok we're now in the middle of July & nearly the middle of winter but the days are starting to get bit longer so its nice to have a bit more sunshine.

So anyway bit of an update. No i haven't dropped off the face of the planet you'll be happy to hear :o) hhhuuuummmmmm ok news. I went to the Pink concert in Sydney in June, it was excellent, I nearly wanted to go see her again but all the tickets sold out. If you're a fan I'd definitely recommend her concert, brilliant. Towards the end of June we started having to think about what we were going to do regarding visa & job & such. So S found out that tandem master is on the skills shortage list in New Zealand so he put a few feelers out there to see if there were any positions going. He got back a good few responses but one particularly was willing to put pen to paper. We need that to sort out visa etc. I wouldn't go & work anywhere without a valid visa. So anyway we took a trip over to Auckland at the beginning of July & it seems nice & DZ is nice. It did rain a lot but suppose what can i expect? is so much farther south than Sydney is. I was finding it hard to get a job here because the new restrictions on 457 visa makes it very unattractive for employers to hire oversea workers, they want to give ozzies the jobs first. Which to be honest is fair enough, but not so good for me. So we're going to apply of the NZ visa & see what happens. If it all works out we'll be over there in Aug. There is a house on the DZ that we can stay in when we first arrive so that'll be nice not to have to sort that part out at least.

If that doesn't come through we might stay in Australia on a tourist visa & do a bit of travelling around. It was our initial plan to drive up the east coast so we may still do that. Then possibly travel home through Asia, I'd love that. I'd like to have stayed here for a bit longer but at the same time I was kindda getting itchy feet to go travel again. We've had a few friends visit us when they stopped off in Sydney on their travels & I was so jealous.

So thats all for now folks I've been so mad busy in work trying to find someone to replace me for the last few weeks. Oh yeah did I mention that the Jul 1 contract deadline got extended until 31 Jul? Well it did but we literally only found out the week before & we'd already started looking into New Zealand stuff so we said feck it may as well finish up. So I'm finishing up work on Fri 17th Jul Yipeee. I'm so happy, I've been so stressed & so down & really not liking my life its so nice to be doing something about it. So freeing. And while I know this week is going to be MAD it's all good cos there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I have found some of my enthusiasm again which was sadly lacking before and I think that part of what was getting me down i couldn't be enthusiastic about anything & that's so not like me. That's partly why I haven't blogged didn't have the energy but hopefully all that will be changing soon. :o)

Hope you all good & having a day that's happy.

I saw this & I though it was particularly apt for this week :o)

"I don't mind coming to work, But that eight hour wait to go home is a bitch."

So up in the air

I'm feeling a bit crushed by all the work pressure I've been under for the past month. Just really flattened really. Just when I think its coming to an end or well at least a bit of a let up, something else comes up to take up more time. I've never been so busy or stressed in a job in my life before & I have to say I'm really hating it. Not the job so much as the stress I've been under. I don't do stress well.

I feel like my life has gone totally out of balance with not enough down time to balance out the madness that is my work life recently. I'm getting bit sick of it.

On top of that it looks like our parent company is going to be outsourcing the reporting side of our org so that will leave me out of a job on 1st July. So its even harder to motivate myself to do stuff when I know I'm going to be let go anyway. That's not even the thing that's worrying me, what worrying me is my visa is a work sponsored visa so if I'm no longer employed by this company I no longer will have a valid visa to stay in Australia. The dept of immigration only give you 28 days to find another sponsor. Which even finding a job in that time is hard. At least I've found out well in advance, I know loads of people who've found out their jobs are going at the end of the day so in that respect I count myself lucky.

But its all very depressing really & a bit of a pain. I don't know what to do I'd be happy to go home but S likes it here & wants to stay but not sure if I can go through the hassle of applying for another visa, it really is a long a tedious paper pushing exercise & patience & nerves get stretched to the limits. I really don't know what to do.

Also one of my best friends is getting married in Sept & I'd love so much to get home for it but if I apply for a visa & its still being processed I'll have to apply for a bridging visa & one of the stipulations is I can't leave the country so that makes it really crappy.

oh what to do what to do? I really feel like my mind is spinning out of control. Its more that everything is so up in the air & I'm not really sure where the chips will land so I feel like I can't plan anything. I feel so powerless & I hate that. I need to shake it off. I'm going to the gym after work & it'll be the first time in ages but I think it'll really help I need to work off some steam.

Anyway hope you all are doing well, I'm trying to catch up on all my blog reading, I'm so behind.

Keep smiling :o)

That kind of a day

You know the one I mean don't you?

The one where you get up & all seems fine, perfectly normal day. You go about your business knowing nothing of the way its going to turn out. Well I'm having that day & its only 10.30am. I am so pissed off right now. I'm sick of this job & the people here. You know its funny cos it wasn't anything big that happened today & if I told you it as just a one off you'd be like 'what? that's nothing' & I know that. Cos when I hear myself saying it out loud(had a bit of a rant to S about it) it sounds so lame & I'm thinking what am i getting myself worked up about. But I think it was just the straw that broke the camels back. I'm so in tune with that saying right now its not funny. Its the accumulation of all the little things that have been happening to piss me off here that have just avalanched & broken the dam for me today. THANK GOD its Fri so i can relax & maybe come back on Monday.

I tell you I am so tempted to just walk. If it wasn't for the crap economy & worrying about getting another job with loans, debts etc to pay I'd be outta here. Its so not worth the agro, life is too short. This is not what we're put here to do. AAAHHHHHHHHHHH

Ok feel bit better, but I'm going from feeling angry & want to hurt something to wanting to curl up in a ball & cry & eat chocolate. We're going to play squash this evening so that'll be so good for me I can just bash the crap out of the ball instead.

There is one guy here, a middle aged man, in his fifties anyway, not married & I normally get on really well with him but the last week or so he's been really weird not sure if its just with me or everyone. Maybe mid-life crisis or something. He's the one that started my crap day over something so small & insignificant its not even worth mentioning. Some things that are so small he takes so seriously. You know now that I'm thinking its like he needs to feel important or something, you know what I mean. But he''ll step on you to do it, to make himself feel big. Oh I don't know I don't get it.

Well really sorry for crappy day kind of a post, I hope you all are having a much better day & after all its the weekend so SMILE. :oD

So over it

There's a girl in my office who is very difficult to deal with at the best of times most people in the office have had run ins with her at one stage or other. I try to get on with everyone i meet i really do, even though its not always possible. But recently maybe the last two months or so she has been really difficult. Working with her & trying to get information is like trying to get blood out of a stone. There have been a few layoffs in the company & its like she guarding her 'work' with a manic determination. But I'm so over her passive aggressiveness i really am, its making working really unbearable. I don't know if because I've been feeling bit blue anyway that its effecting me more or if this situation has been a contributor to feeling like this. I've never... well never in work, wanted to throttle someone so much today as i have her, very unlike me. I just wanted to slap her & tell her to cop on, that this behaviour is not going to make her more assured of keeping her position but totally less likely that they are going to keep her if it continues. The ceo has even noticed.

You know what it is? she creates a bad atmosphere or something in the office & its crap to work here at the moment. I hate feeling like I'm tiptoeing around someone or that work is a potential battlefield at every turn. She told me to piss off last week & brushed past me out of the office (a little dramatic i thought)when I was asking her about audit stuff that was needed. Not stuff that i needed that the auditors needed, you would think she would at least put her work first.

Then i think there are so many people so much worse off than me & i should just get over it & get on with it. But I've had my little rant so I guess that'll have to do for the time being. People frustrate me sometimes. Grrrrrr

Think I'll go home have a nice relaxing bath & listen to relaxing music & just chill out. That thought has cheered me up somewhat so I'm off & hope you all are having a tad more pleasant day.

See ya.